6 more weeks to my first major exam since I started schooling at Stansfield. The mood within my group haven't been great or should I say, my mood and Mel's mood. We're demoralized cuz Jeeshan and Runima are giving us back our Mock Exam papers. 3 essays in 3 hours, 1 essay must be at least have 4 sides(and that is only the minimum). How to write? I can only write half a page, and Mel, perhaps 1 page?

I haven't outwardly proclaimed that I'm demoralized but Mel on the other hand have been doing so. What surprised me was what I said to her, "Don't have to be demoralized and think we're wasting the S$8000. Just treat it as we're paying to find out which areas we can excel in. Now we know Eng Lit is not our cup of tea. Treat it as a lesson learnt lor. Paid and learnt." She was like, "Wah. That is from you?"

We no longer have anymore tutorials so lessons end at 330pm for me now. Was going to check out Raffles X'change with Mel after lesson today but Mel's cousin asked her to accompany him to buy his girlfriend's birthday present last minute so here I am back home. Wanted to catch a movie, but I forgot to bring my wallet. =/

Mel is thinking of doing her degree in Multimedia cuz she has a diploma in that. At least she has another plan. Me, I guess I'm still searching, still thinking, still deliberating. -shrug- We'll take things 1 day at a time I guess. Anyway, Jeeshan said that the part-time students did better than us and he was shocked. Logically speaking, the full-time student should do better than the part-time students cuz we have the benefit of time and tutorials.

My class did atrociously bad and he was very disappointed. He kept sighing and wondering why the part-time students did better than us. They started school in September. Have 1 and a half hours of lessons and within that 1.5 hours, they cover 2 modules. We started in June, 3 hrs of lessons, 1 module a day. I guess there is an urgency in the part-time students. They know they don't have anytime to waste. Us, on the other hand, we are taking it for granted. We're thinking that we have alot of time and laziness gets the better of us. Procrastinating becomes a part of our life and then we're hooked on procrastinating. Now, we have 2 choices. Either we buck up and start pulling up our socks or wait for failure to stare straight at us. Will we move? Will we budge? Will we put in that extra bit of effort? Only time will tell.

Staring into the Abyss,