Psalms 43:5

Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God.

In times like this, it's so easy to run away and hide. I felt like doing nothing but sleep. Just sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep the whole day through. It's easy to run away and hide, cuz it just means taking a step back. Taking a step back is definitely much easier than taking a step forward, because taking a step forward takes great faith and courage, and not to mention, a certain risk invovled.

In times like this, am I going to take the easier way out? The LOSER way out? Or am I going to take the more difficult way out? The way that will make me a winner? Taking the easier way out means I'll forever be going round and round the merry-go-round. Taking the easier way out means I'll never move out, and move on. Taking the easier way out will reflect how weak my character is.

Sure, it's often not the outcome that matters, but how you deal with that outcome that matters. It's about the process. The process of which will make you someone with a stronger character and a stronger capacity, or someone with lousy character and a lousy attitude.

Am I going to run away and hide? So difficult to deal with failure. Especially when it's not just one time. Can I break out of that 'bondage?'. Can I stop walking round and round and start scaling the moutain? Can. Cuz He said that all things work together for good to those who love Him, to those who are called according to His purpose. His purpose for me - that's what I need to find.

Staring into the Abyss,