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Friday, January 27, 2006
Have you ever felt like putting away whatever you're doing to go somewhere and sit for hours?
Have you ever felt like not talking to anyone and not wanting anyone to talk to you?
Have you ever felt like sleeping and sleeping and just sleeping away
We all have our sob stories to tell. The only difference is whose story is sadder and who makes a better narrator.
It's at times like this when I feel so lost and so out of touch. When I question the purpose of living, and I question the purpose of me doing what I'm doing.
When sometimes all I desire is just knowing that someone is there but all I can find is a fading shadow.
When sometimes all I desire is just that few minutes of silence and all I can find is noise upon noise.
Chasing shadows. Chasing broken dreams. The world is vast and there's so much one can do. But where's the catalyst? Where's the motivation??
Have you ever felt like not talking to anyone and not wanting anyone to talk to you?
Have you ever felt like sleeping and sleeping and just sleeping away
We all have our sob stories to tell. The only difference is whose story is sadder and who makes a better narrator.
It's at times like this when I feel so lost and so out of touch. When I question the purpose of living, and I question the purpose of me doing what I'm doing.
When sometimes all I desire is just knowing that someone is there but all I can find is a fading shadow.
When sometimes all I desire is just that few minutes of silence and all I can find is noise upon noise.
Chasing shadows. Chasing broken dreams. The world is vast and there's so much one can do. But where's the catalyst? Where's the motivation??
Staring into the Abyss,
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006
It's incredible how little things can serve to remind us that time is passing very quickly. My colleague who was away on maternity leave for 3 months is back. This means, I've been at my present company for 3 months! January will be mark my 4th month at the company and I can proudly tell the new staff who just joined us, "hey, I think I know more about the company than you do. Haha!". Yeah. Cheap thrill I know, but, so what? I mean, in my short stint there, I've seen 2 colleague resigned, and another colleague pregnant. How happening right?
My colleague was heavily pregnant when I first joined the company in October. I think she only left to give birth 1 or 2 weeks later, and it was then I was shifted to sit infront of my current 'boss'. After months of getting used to her style of working, getting used to her, getting used to doing work for her, it feels alittle weird now that I have to return my seat to its rightful occupant. It feels weird that I won't be under my 'boss' now, but under 7 different assistants. It feels weird not knowing where I'll be sitting the next day, but that's life for people like me. I don't know if I'm the one sticking out like a sore thumb now or the colleague who just returned with a cute baby boy.
It's heartening though, to know that the company has intentions of extending my contract. Whether it's because they think I've done a great job, or whether it's because they don't have a choice since they're shorthanded, I choose to believe that I haven't let myself down while carrying out what was required of me to do. Thank God for His Grace and Favour. I haven't agreed to the extension though my colleagues are urging me to take up the offer. I mean, it's not always you get the opportunity to have your contract extended right? Not when, at the beginning, the manager was toying with the idea of replacing me. So why reject what seem to be a good opportunity? Opportunity knocks only once I know, miss it, it'll be gone forever, but I'm still not going to commit until I know what is it that I want. Still have issues to iron out, and judging from how time flies, there's simply no time for procrastinating, unless, I choose of course to stay forever in this rut.
My colleague was heavily pregnant when I first joined the company in October. I think she only left to give birth 1 or 2 weeks later, and it was then I was shifted to sit infront of my current 'boss'. After months of getting used to her style of working, getting used to her, getting used to doing work for her, it feels alittle weird now that I have to return my seat to its rightful occupant. It feels weird that I won't be under my 'boss' now, but under 7 different assistants. It feels weird not knowing where I'll be sitting the next day, but that's life for people like me. I don't know if I'm the one sticking out like a sore thumb now or the colleague who just returned with a cute baby boy.
It's heartening though, to know that the company has intentions of extending my contract. Whether it's because they think I've done a great job, or whether it's because they don't have a choice since they're shorthanded, I choose to believe that I haven't let myself down while carrying out what was required of me to do. Thank God for His Grace and Favour. I haven't agreed to the extension though my colleagues are urging me to take up the offer. I mean, it's not always you get the opportunity to have your contract extended right? Not when, at the beginning, the manager was toying with the idea of replacing me. So why reject what seem to be a good opportunity? Opportunity knocks only once I know, miss it, it'll be gone forever, but I'm still not going to commit until I know what is it that I want. Still have issues to iron out, and judging from how time flies, there's simply no time for procrastinating, unless, I choose of course to stay forever in this rut.
Staring into the Abyss,
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
HAPPY 64th BIRTHDAY, FERGIE!
With loads of Love,
` kAeJ
With loads of Love,
` kAeJ
Staring into the Abyss,
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