Dilemmas, Dilemmas..

Sometimes don't we just love to get ourselves caught in situations that we don't know how to get ourselves out of?

Take myself for example. There are a couple of colleagues taking full advantage of me at work, and the right thing for me to do is quit, since not only the air in the office is filled with office politics, there are obnoxious colleagues to deal with and a miserable pay to take home to. But, I'm still there, and there for half a year. Of cuz, I'm not complaining that I have alot to do, and in fact, I don't mind having more work to do, I want more work to do. Beats sitting around and staring into space.

If I have to be honest, I'll tell you that there is something inside me that actually wants to give my present situation a chance. I always naively tell myself that my situation will change and it's not as bad as I always make it out to be. They'll change. It'll change. But I guess, even a fool can tell that things are not going to change - perhaps, unless, I'm converted to a full-time staff.

Sure, there are some colleagues that I detest. But there are also colleagues that I enjoy working with although they're a minority and I hardly get to work with them since they're of a much higher position than me.

And then, there's the assistant general manager. A woman whom I have the deepest admiration for. It makes my day whenever she smiles at me and say, "good morning". Then there's also Idol number 2, and although I'm too shy to strike a conversation with her, I just enjoy the feeling. Besides, I've taken the first move today. :) She's the only person I know from my office that brings work home to do just because she can't do OT this week!

It's not difficult to break away. My contract expires at the end of March, but... somewhere deep inside tells me that I'm going to agree to another month of extension if the job agency calls me, and..

I'm secretly hoping that my job agency will call me soon..

Staring into the Abyss,