In one of Sun's song, there is a sentence that sings "你的伤痕也是我给的...". I never paid much attention to the lyrics of this song until today. Suddenly, I remembered about how this song struck a chord with him as well. Time flies. The date read 17th August 2002 then, now it's already May 1st 2007. Guess this is something that I've got to live with for the rest of my life. The guilt, the anguish, the regrets and the seemingly good times.

He said,

"There's no need for a reconciliation. I'm not angry with you or hold anything against you ... that much I'm sure. But you must know you remind me of my human frailty ... and I'm still reminded of the things I shldn't even have done.So I wldn't talk to you ... or go up to you ... there's no need for reconciliation.
I hold no grudges ... it's just for myself."

Yet I can't help but feel I played a major role in hurting him BIG time. I must have been such a fool for doing that. No way back now and I have no one to blame but myself. I never meant for things to turn out this way but I guess this heart will always remain broken.

Staring into the Abyss,