Been busy with a thousand and one things to do yet ironically, when I sit down and wonder what I am so busy with, I simply have no idea at all.

Assignments are due on the 2nd week of October which means it's about time I attempt to start writing my papers, or at least come up with a cover page. Researching for a presentation my group have to do is taking up so much time and effort I am so tempted to give it up considering it is only worth 5 marks. Stupid module.

Journalism assignment is worse with my group having to write a newspaper with REAL hard and soft news. Thank God for a news lead (Thanks Dennis!) and for opening more leads for us to cover. Interviewing people have been a fun process and up next is an interview with a Y.E.S 933FM Deejay! Going down to the red-light district to source for news have been an eye-opener and to certain extend, heart-wrenching.

I am rambling I know.

Sometimes when things happen, it is almost impossible to start again on a clean slate. There is always that need to look for a scapegoat - possibly to "pay" for the mistake whether it is made intentionally or unintentionally. Someone just has to answer for it. It is sad to see things turning out this way and even sadder to know you can't totally trust anyone.

A and M surprised me with a book. And to be honest, I am touched by the gesture. I want very much to believe they really mean what they say yet a certain part of me remains doubtful. Who's to know when someone's gonna put a knife through your back? It pays to be careful.

Well, side-tracking again, it takes 3 weeks to form a habit. Does it mean if I do something consecutively for 3 weeks and I realise I don't miss it anymore, something is wrong? So many different thoughts, so many different people talking. Where's the PEACE that's supposed to reign in one's heart?

I can go on and on.....

Staring into the Abyss,