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Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Last night, I watched with trepidation as Man Utd played AC Milan in the first leg of the Champions League semi-finals at Old Trafford. Seriously depleted defensively with players like - Rio Ferdinand, Vidic, Gary Neville, Silvestre, Park, Saha injured, the odds of Man Utd pulling off the win with a make-shift defence against world-class players like Maldini, Kaka, Dida, Gattuso, Nesta seemed unlikely.
We took the lead within 5 minutes and honestly, I felt very excited as I thought about the 7-1 mauling of Roma. Repeat on the cards perhaps? However, it was not to be so. Our defence was all over the place and we were 2-1 down by half-time. This time, it felt as though we were going to suffer a humiliating defeat. I was lamenting over sms with Thow Wee about how our defence frailities was going to cost us when Rooney came up with a goal to keep the scoreline at 2-2.
I watched the remaining of the match with my heart pounding and it was extremely nail-biting stuff as Milan threatened to score the 3rd away goal which would certainly see them through to th finals. But Ferguson's Manchester United are a team who will not concede defeat without a fight. Fight hard we did, and in the last minute of injury time, Rooney blasted the ball into the corner of the net to help us win 3-2.
4.33am -I gave a muted scream as I watched Rooney score from the edge of the box. GOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAL. So satisfying, so gratifying. Milan are still favourites to proceed to the finals as the 2nd leg is played at the San Siro. But we are Manchester United, and at Manchester United, Fergie has drilled into his players the determination, the passion, the desire, the attitude to never say die. Our Treble Dream may seem impossible but our dream is still alive. Very much alive.
We took the lead within 5 minutes and honestly, I felt very excited as I thought about the 7-1 mauling of Roma. Repeat on the cards perhaps? However, it was not to be so. Our defence was all over the place and we were 2-1 down by half-time. This time, it felt as though we were going to suffer a humiliating defeat. I was lamenting over sms with Thow Wee about how our defence frailities was going to cost us when Rooney came up with a goal to keep the scoreline at 2-2.
I watched the remaining of the match with my heart pounding and it was extremely nail-biting stuff as Milan threatened to score the 3rd away goal which would certainly see them through to th finals. But Ferguson's Manchester United are a team who will not concede defeat without a fight. Fight hard we did, and in the last minute of injury time, Rooney blasted the ball into the corner of the net to help us win 3-2.
4.33am -I gave a muted scream as I watched Rooney score from the edge of the box. GOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAL. So satisfying, so gratifying. Milan are still favourites to proceed to the finals as the 2nd leg is played at the San Siro. But we are Manchester United, and at Manchester United, Fergie has drilled into his players the determination, the passion, the desire, the attitude to never say die. Our Treble Dream may seem impossible but our dream is still alive. Very much alive.
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Monday, April 23, 2007
Had a simple dinner at my place with my relatives and some good friends to mark my 21st birthday. Glad to have the opportunity to catch up with them. Thanks for taking time off to come - Darran, Melissa, Desmond, Peishi, Jiahui, Soo Chin, Jane, Joyce, Warren, big sister, John and Jasmine! :)
My Jie, big sister, John at the buffet table..
My cousins, Eileen & Teresa
The few people who reached early..
My 2 grandmothers..
Having a game of mahjong while waiting for dinner to start..
My cousins, Tiffany, Malcolm, Stephanie..
Darran & Mel - Stansfield buddies..
My Jie and I!
Thorn among the roses..
Friends I've known for at least 5 years..
BEST cg members..
my big sister!
my boss!
Janey!
Soo Chin!
Joycee!
Teresa!
Peishi!
Sorry, the pictures with John and Warren in the picture didn't turn out nicely, kinda blurred.
Sorry, the pictures with John and Warren in the picture didn't turn out nicely, kinda blurred.
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
Happy 21st birthday to kAeJ! Kinda hard to believe that I am actually celebrating my 21st birthday today. I'm incredibly thankful to God that I'm still alive (although sometimes I wish I'm not) and surrounded by friends who truly cares. I said this last birthday and I'm going to say it again - Today, in itself is a miracle.
I find it quite funny when Huiling told me over dinner on Thursday, "You should start looking for a boyfriend. I won't object you know?" My cousins are telling me that I'm of legal age to get married without having to seek the approval of my parents. Ah, the joy of being 21. I can hear Freedom beckoning. Yet, with greater power comes greater responsiblity. Now is the time for me to take control of my own life, to be responsible for everything I do and say. That in itself is pretty daunting.
I've stepped into Adulthood and it's time to embark on another journey. I don't blame God for the things that are happening but I do wonder why it always has to happen. I count my blessings and I'm extremely thankful to God for surrounding me with friends who care and are always there to make me happy. But today has not been a good day and I feel like I'm going to burst into tears anytime. All the bitterness, all the unforgiveness, all the hatred, won't You just take it away?
I find it quite funny when Huiling told me over dinner on Thursday, "You should start looking for a boyfriend. I won't object you know?" My cousins are telling me that I'm of legal age to get married without having to seek the approval of my parents. Ah, the joy of being 21. I can hear Freedom beckoning. Yet, with greater power comes greater responsiblity. Now is the time for me to take control of my own life, to be responsible for everything I do and say. That in itself is pretty daunting.
I've stepped into Adulthood and it's time to embark on another journey. I don't blame God for the things that are happening but I do wonder why it always has to happen. I count my blessings and I'm extremely thankful to God for surrounding me with friends who care and are always there to make me happy. But today has not been a good day and I feel like I'm going to burst into tears anytime. All the bitterness, all the unforgiveness, all the hatred, won't You just take it away?
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Today I met Hui Nah and Joycee for dinner at a cafe in Serangoon Gardens called Ice³. It was a pre-birthday celebration for me and a farewell dinner for her as she'll be flying to meet Cris in New Mexico on Friday. I was pretty excited to meet them because I knew they were giving me the new man utd away jersey. The jersey that I had been pinning for so long! Remember my entry on how I had to satisfy myself by secretly taking a picture of myself wearing the jersey in the changing room? Well, I now lay my hands on an authentic man united away jersey given to me with much love from Hui Nah, Joycee & Jane and my big sister! Woooohoooo!
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The michievious Hui Nah brought me from 7th Heaven to the pits of Hell when I opened the "prank" present she gave me. It was exactly the same feeling I had few years back when I told Huiling my wish was for J to wish me happy birthday. Instead of getting J to wish me, she got someone I didn't really like in the CG to pose as J and hold a note that read, "Happy Birthday! Love, J." Hui Nah gave me a box and I excitedly unwrapped it knowing that they got me the jersey I wanted.
The box opened to the Man United badge, and as I lovingly touched the badge, I thought to myself, "Yeah! I am finally laying my hands on the jersey!" To my horror, I realised that the badge was "coming off". That was when I realised she "DID" the jersey herself!
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She painstakingly pasted everything on a white T-shirt and it looked so real, I told her NIKE will be proud of her. In a bid to duplicate the jersey, she had the real jersey colour-photocopied, printed the words and pasted everything AT WORK! Despite my initial "shock" at the "pirated" t-shirit, I am actually quite touched by the effort she put into this surprise. As usual, prankster at work and I fell for it. But Kudos to Hui Nah. Only she can think of such brilliant pranks/surprises. I marvel at her creativity. Really.
Joycee and her couldn't stop laughing at my expression upon realising it is a "fake" and they had a great time imagining for me the different scenarios that will happen if I ever wear the "fake" jersey out. Hui Nah happily related everything to Cris over the phone, and that Uncle Cris was so entertained. Tsk. Talk about finding joy in someone's misery! :P
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They eventually gave me the real jersey but not before narrating everything to Jane who was so tickled by it when we walked Joycee back to her place. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.
Thanks for the present Hui Nah, Joycee, Jane & big sister! Love ya all! :)
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The michievious Hui Nah brought me from 7th Heaven to the pits of Hell when I opened the "prank" present she gave me. It was exactly the same feeling I had few years back when I told Huiling my wish was for J to wish me happy birthday. Instead of getting J to wish me, she got someone I didn't really like in the CG to pose as J and hold a note that read, "Happy Birthday! Love, J." Hui Nah gave me a box and I excitedly unwrapped it knowing that they got me the jersey I wanted.
The box opened to the Man United badge, and as I lovingly touched the badge, I thought to myself, "Yeah! I am finally laying my hands on the jersey!" To my horror, I realised that the badge was "coming off". That was when I realised she "DID" the jersey herself!
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She painstakingly pasted everything on a white T-shirt and it looked so real, I told her NIKE will be proud of her. In a bid to duplicate the jersey, she had the real jersey colour-photocopied, printed the words and pasted everything AT WORK! Despite my initial "shock" at the "pirated" t-shirit, I am actually quite touched by the effort she put into this surprise. As usual, prankster at work and I fell for it. But Kudos to Hui Nah. Only she can think of such brilliant pranks/surprises. I marvel at her creativity. Really.
Joycee and her couldn't stop laughing at my expression upon realising it is a "fake" and they had a great time imagining for me the different scenarios that will happen if I ever wear the "fake" jersey out. Hui Nah happily related everything to Cris over the phone, and that Uncle Cris was so entertained. Tsk. Talk about finding joy in someone's misery! :P
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They eventually gave me the real jersey but not before narrating everything to Jane who was so tickled by it when we walked Joycee back to her place. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.
Thanks for the present Hui Nah, Joycee, Jane & big sister! Love ya all! :)
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Monday, April 16, 2007
I've decided to change my blog address after realising that there are people copying my blog entries and posting it as their own. It bothers me especially when the person is someone I know. Don't really like the feeling of the person knowing so much about me and yet pretending not to really know. Worse still, don't even have the decency to at least quote me or mention he/she took it from this blog.
I don't believe in locking a blog because the reason why people have a blog is to have someone read it. That's the reason why it is a web log. Also, I can't really prevent people from copying my entries because whatever I write is not copyrighted, so the best way is for me to change my blog address. Well, I just don't like or rather, hate the fact that it is someone I know who is doing this. Get a freaking life.
I don't believe in locking a blog because the reason why people have a blog is to have someone read it. That's the reason why it is a web log. Also, I can't really prevent people from copying my entries because whatever I write is not copyrighted, so the best way is for me to change my blog address. Well, I just don't like or rather, hate the fact that it is someone I know who is doing this. Get a freaking life.
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Friday, April 13, 2007
It's finally over!! Last paper on Advertising today and even though the chance of getting A for this paper is extremely slim, it doesn't matter since I've done my best. Spotted the wrong questions, and terribly mis-led by my lecturer who said he'll repeat the questions from past years. (LIAR!)
Anyway, no more assignments to rush, no more reports to write, no more powerpoint slides to do. Hoooooray! It has been an intense 10 months with projects and exams happening one after another. I still remember how I had to drag myself home during Term 1 to study for a paper the next day after counting down the New Year with my friends. Today, I complete the last paper for Term 2! To quote Cherie, "Time drank Red Bull again".
Well, got a couple of things more to complete before I officiately graduate with a Diploma in Mass Communications. A big hurdle stands in my though - Gotta pass my Econs. If I don't, then no diploma since it incorporates the professional certificate in basic marketing & communications. Why the hell did I choose to do this and not the diploma itself? Your guess is as good as mine. But since the mistake has been made, just gotta see through it and make sure I pass on this attempt.
18th April: Econs Test
20th April: Graduation Project 1st Meeting
12th May: Submission of Graduation Project
15th May: Econs Exam
28th May: Oral Presentation of Graduation Project.
Now, who said it's time to rejoice??? Hehe. Nevertheless, I will still be happy and look forever to a nice HOLIDAY. So, who wanna go travelling? ;)
Anyway, no more assignments to rush, no more reports to write, no more powerpoint slides to do. Hoooooray! It has been an intense 10 months with projects and exams happening one after another. I still remember how I had to drag myself home during Term 1 to study for a paper the next day after counting down the New Year with my friends. Today, I complete the last paper for Term 2! To quote Cherie, "Time drank Red Bull again".
Well, got a couple of things more to complete before I officiately graduate with a Diploma in Mass Communications. A big hurdle stands in my though - Gotta pass my Econs. If I don't, then no diploma since it incorporates the professional certificate in basic marketing & communications. Why the hell did I choose to do this and not the diploma itself? Your guess is as good as mine. But since the mistake has been made, just gotta see through it and make sure I pass on this attempt.
18th April: Econs Test
20th April: Graduation Project 1st Meeting
12th May: Submission of Graduation Project
15th May: Econs Exam
28th May: Oral Presentation of Graduation Project.
Now, who said it's time to rejoice??? Hehe. Nevertheless, I will still be happy and look forever to a nice HOLIDAY. So, who wanna go travelling? ;)
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What an amazing scoreline! No one would have expected us to beat Roma so convincingly and so impressively. Well, I for one, prayed very hard that we could overturn our first-leg champions league deficit and progress to the semi-finals and we did it!
Poor Roma! Despite having best defensive records among all the other quarter-finalists, they didn't know what hit them at OLD TRAFFORD. They go back to Italy humbled by the majestic devils.
Many Firsts:
- 1st time progressing into the semi-finals after 5 years of trying and not succeeding
- 1st time scoring 7 goals against an Italian team who are masters of defence.
- Alan Smith's 1st united goal since Nov 2005 and after coming back from a broken leg.
- 1st champions league goal for on-fire Ronaldo.
Simply amazing! How we did it with 4 key players injured and having reserve players like Eagles, Dong Fangzhuo, Richardson, Cathcart on our substitutes' bench. The hunger, the passion, the commitment from every single Red Devil on the pitch yesterday was magnificent!
Well, despite everything, we've nothing to show for yet. We're still fighting in the EPL, a FA Cup semi-final against Watford on Saturday, and now we have a Champions league semi-final against AC Milan or Bayern Munich.
Man United are famous for making things difficult for themselves, but could this be our year? Will we, finally finally win something? Or maybe all 3? Well, it remains to be seen. Come on Your Reds!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
What an amazing scoreline! No one would have expected us to beat Roma so convincingly and so impressively. Well, I for one, prayed very hard that we could overturn our first-leg champions league deficit and progress to the semi-finals and we did it!
Poor Roma! Despite having best defensive records among all the other quarter-finalists, they didn't know what hit them at OLD TRAFFORD. They go back to Italy humbled by the majestic devils.
Many Firsts:
- 1st time progressing into the semi-finals after 5 years of trying and not succeeding
- 1st time scoring 7 goals against an Italian team who are masters of defence.
- Alan Smith's 1st united goal since Nov 2005 and after coming back from a broken leg.
- 1st champions league goal for on-fire Ronaldo.
Simply amazing! How we did it with 4 key players injured and having reserve players like Eagles, Dong Fangzhuo, Richardson, Cathcart on our substitutes' bench. The hunger, the passion, the commitment from every single Red Devil on the pitch yesterday was magnificent!
Well, despite everything, we've nothing to show for yet. We're still fighting in the EPL, a FA Cup semi-final against Watford on Saturday, and now we have a Champions league semi-final against AC Milan or Bayern Munich.
Man United are famous for making things difficult for themselves, but could this be our year? Will we, finally finally win something? Or maybe all 3? Well, it remains to be seen. Come on Your Reds!
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Sunday, April 08, 2007
It has been a tough week. Mugging for exams, preparing for Easter, planning and organising Siang's birthday, dealing with the difficult people at home has certainly left me stretched with so many hiccups happening along the way. The feeling of not having done something well bothers me, especially when I did my best to make it work.
I'm starting to lose my focus and I'm finding pushing myself to study for this set of exams such an exhuasting ordeal. The fear of not doing well haunts me, and I'm gripped by anxiety that I'll flunk my papers and not get the damm diploma. But there is always a voice that tells me not to care, that it doesn't even matter whether I get all "As" or not.
Maybe it's because I don't want the diploma term to end. What's going to happen when it ends? Am I really going to continue witht the advanced diploma + degree? Do I really have to do that? But I don't wanna go through the whole cycle of presentations, projects, assignments and exams again. I don't wanna go through the whole cycle of asking and questioning myself again and again whether I am going to make it or not. So do I then find a job and work? But what can I do? Yet only until I succeed than perhaps I can stop having to bear the brunt of all the ridicule and condemenation at home and from myself.
They say a person without a vision will perish. I'm living on borrowed time and I'm counting down the days when it'll catch up on me. But for how long more can I continue to pretend? This has really got to stop.
And to further compound my misery, Man Utd lost to Portsmouth in the league....
P/S: Pardon me for being so incoherent. I can hardly think straight now.
I'm starting to lose my focus and I'm finding pushing myself to study for this set of exams such an exhuasting ordeal. The fear of not doing well haunts me, and I'm gripped by anxiety that I'll flunk my papers and not get the damm diploma. But there is always a voice that tells me not to care, that it doesn't even matter whether I get all "As" or not.
Maybe it's because I don't want the diploma term to end. What's going to happen when it ends? Am I really going to continue witht the advanced diploma + degree? Do I really have to do that? But I don't wanna go through the whole cycle of presentations, projects, assignments and exams again. I don't wanna go through the whole cycle of asking and questioning myself again and again whether I am going to make it or not. So do I then find a job and work? But what can I do? Yet only until I succeed than perhaps I can stop having to bear the brunt of all the ridicule and condemenation at home and from myself.
They say a person without a vision will perish. I'm living on borrowed time and I'm counting down the days when it'll catch up on me. But for how long more can I continue to pretend? This has really got to stop.
And to further compound my misery, Man Utd lost to Portsmouth in the league....
P/S: Pardon me for being so incoherent. I can hardly think straight now.
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Friday, April 06, 2007
Today is Siang's birthday. She's a wonderful leader and a great friend. Held a surprise party for her and despite the dismal turnout, still hope she enjoyed herself. Happy birthday Siang! Hope you are really happy and may all your fondest wishes and deepest desires come to pass. :)
Laying the table while waiting for the Star to appear..
Us hiding in a bid to surprise Siang..
Yes Jane, I can see you..
Our Star arrives and blowing out the candles..
Cutting the yummy cake Shufen baked..
Our little get together with Siang..
Eating, talking and enjoying each other's company..
The one with the most number of stickers wins..
Siang with one of her many presents..
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIANG! LOVE YA!
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIANG! LOVE YA!
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Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Finally finished MEMORIZING for tomorrow's paper. Don't have a very good feeling about it, but I can't be bothered anymore.
Woke up early and went out to study. Home's not a very condusive environment to study with so many Temptations lurking around. My sister's having her holidays so I study on the floor when she's playing computer games at my table and each time I read my notes on the floor, I'll want to sleep after reading 1 sentence. Then there's the lure of TV, mahjong, computer games, and the BED to distract me from actually studying.
I seriously cannot wait for my exams to be over so I can spare myself from this agony. There are more interesting things I wanna do than memorizing stupid notes. :(
Woke up early and went out to study. Home's not a very condusive environment to study with so many Temptations lurking around. My sister's having her holidays so I study on the floor when she's playing computer games at my table and each time I read my notes on the floor, I'll want to sleep after reading 1 sentence. Then there's the lure of TV, mahjong, computer games, and the BED to distract me from actually studying.
I seriously cannot wait for my exams to be over so I can spare myself from this agony. There are more interesting things I wanna do than memorizing stupid notes. :(
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